venting

I have this overwhelming feeling recently of well...being overwhelmed.I don't know even if I am happy or sad or just frustrated.

From a moment by moment basis, I have different feelings. I don't even know which feeling is the real feeling and which feeling is the changing feeling?

I am frustrated that the people around me, don't see how hard I have worked and how hard I continue to work. My job is actually really stressful, and ive been there over year and a half...and i've been stressed. Being successful at this job means alot to me, so i do push myself. At the age of 22, its a hard thing to do. Since a good amount of my peers aren't struggling in a career.It is a good thing, but some people don't see that what I am doing is a big accomplishment.

Someone had the balls to compare me to a rich, spoiled chick from a stupid reality show. I've worked my ass off since i was 16, had at least one job or even 2.graduated from post with a 3.4, on time and got a job 4 days after graduation. Never had a break, never had time to freaking unpack. Bought a damn brand new car on my own, pay for everything but rent.


I'm not spanish enough, won't be a good house wife (even tho that is not even in my mind to be one), ......things are just piling up on me and really starting to get to me.

My goal is to get my MBA, at the age of 23 start it..probably finish when im 25. Maybe then i'll prove people wrong? and they can be proud?


My whole life, I've done for my parents.."because its the right thing to do"....


I am growing tired of everything.

eating fruit rollups

..bleh

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I look pale, but thats ok.



I feel like im having a mid-20s barely life crisis. But not really...

Real sickness from being in an office.

This link is from the OSHA TECHNICAL MANUAL it outlines and describes real medical effects of being in an office enviornment.

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MASHIMARO

| MashiMaro |

I LOVE THIS GUY!

he is my favorite guy and i want everything that has his lil charater on it.

BUY ME STUFF :) MUAH

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lyrics or something.

It was my friends profile. I dunno if its the real lyrics or what but it made me laugh since I've never seen them.

enjoy ---------- on and the sun is out :)

I was tired of my lady, we'd been together too long.
Like a worn-out recording, of a favorite song.
So while she lay there sleeping, I read the paper in bed.
And in the personals column, there was this letter I read:

"If you like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
If you're not into yoga, if you have half-a-brain.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
I'm the lady you've looked for, write to me, and escape."

I didn't think about my lady, I know that sounds kind of mean.
But me and my old lady, had fallen into the same old dull routine.
So I wrote to the paper, took out a personal ad.
And though I'm nobody's poet, I thought it wasn't half-bad.

"Yes, I like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
I'm not much into health food, I am into champagne.
I've got to meet you by tomorrow noon, and cut through all this red tape.
At a bar called O'Malley's, where we'll plan our escape."

So I waited with high hopes, then she walked in the place.
I knew her smile in an instant, I knew the curve of her face.
It was my own lovely lady, and she said, "Oh, it's you."
And we laughed for a moment, and I said, "I never knew"..

"That you liked Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
And the feel of the ocean, and the taste of champagne.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
You're the love that I've looked for, come with me, and escape."

"If you like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
And the feel of the ocean, and the taste of champagne.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
You're the love that I've looked for, come with me, and escape."

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How to build the best paper airplane in the world

The perfect weapon for that boring meeting.

Another test for FLOCK

and ehhh.. i duno its missing something and its completly Yahoo related. i like google.

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Testing

Ok, so im testing out my new brower which is suppose to be cool. Im still testing the water tho.

I did notice one thing that they didn't do correctly. When setting up ur flock brower it goes thru this really kinda annoying process of saving old setting from your last brower (mine was firefox). But when it finally went thru it only saved half of my bookmarks which is the most important thing to me.

But we will see how it goes down. I must say tho I do like the flickr thing they got goin.

I'll let you know how fancy this blog this is.

FLOCK

and i already see that I cant post images dirctly in here.. so kidna wack. But will see.

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uninspired

Completly and utterly pissed off that I lost my art motivation.

Newbet

How did i become one? I am putting everything aside and working my ass off.NOTHING but my webite, animation and learning and working out.....Time to shape up or ship out. Ive been slacking ever since i graduated, its sad.

I had a brianstorm at work today...




>:)< ((((Ok thats a pissed off guy with a beard. lol))))

Sanyo Solarark

I am doing client research and I was looking through the Sanyo website and found this.

Its pretty cool, and looks really awsome and designed really well. Go take a look!

Sanyo Solarark

BITCH!

So, not that i think i have a huge audience for this blog, BUT! this is for my female viewers. And those males who will prolly find it more funny then educational. So at work, I entered the word "bitch" into the google search engine and hit the "feeling luckey" box. And what site comes up but a website for a magazine. "Bitch - Feminist response to Pop Culture". I have to admit I looke further into the site, because well...if you knew me you'd know why. So, here is the link : Bitch.

And below is the reason why they call themselves "Bitch". I couldn't have said it better.


"For as long as we've been publishing Bitch, there's one question that gets asked over and over. And over. "Why did you choose that word as the name of your magazine?" While we're aware that our title is off-putting to some people, we think it's worth it. And here's why.

When it's being used as an insult, "bitch" is most often hurled at women who speak their minds, who have opinions and don't shy away from expressing them. If being an outspoken woman means being a bitch, we'll take that as a compliment, thanks.

Furthermore, if we take it as a compliment, it loses its power to hurt us. And if we can get people thinking about what they're saying when they use the word, that's even better.

And, last but certainly not least, "bitch" describes all at once who we are when we speak up, what it is we're too worked up over to be quiet about, and the act of making ourselves heard."

big foot

Do you think Bigfoot is real?

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I trained a fish!

Ok, at my job my co-worker jonathan has a fighter fish named um .. winter? Anyways... Juwen and I like feeding it everyday even tho its not our fish. The fish gets all excited and crazy whenever juwen and I come near the tank. During our down time we have a tendency to look and chill with the fish. I jokingly stuck my finger by the water one day and the fish jumped up and bit my finger. I of course jumped like a little bitch. So anyhoot, the fish has come acustome to my finger and that I feed it. So now i have trained it to jump :) I am so cool and the fish loves me :)

i will hold you close.

Meet me in outer space
we could spend the night
watch the earth come up
I've grown tired of that place
won't you come with me
we could start again

How do you do it
make me feel like I do
how do you do it
it's better than I ever knew, ooh

Meet me in outer space
I will hold you close
if your afraid of heights
I need you to see this place
it might be the only way
that I can show you how
it feels to be inside of you

How do you do it
make me feel like I do
how do you do it
it's better than I ever knew, ooh
how do you do it
make me feel like I do

Fuck me in my own way

If I hadn't made me, I would've been made somehow
If I hadn't assembled myself, I'd have fallen apart by now
If I hadn't made me, I'd be more inclined to bow
Powers that be, would have swallowed me up
But that's more than I can allow
Bow, aww yeah
If you let them make you, they'll make you paper mache
At a distance you're strong, until the wind comes
Then you crumble and blow away
If you let them fuck you, there will be no fore-play
Rest assured, they'll screw you complete
Til your ass is blue and gray
You should make amends with you
If only for better health, better health
But if you really want to live
Why not try, and make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself
If I hadn't made me, I'd have fallen apart by now
I won't let them make me, It's more than I can allow
So when I make me, I won't be paper mache
And if I fuck me, I'll fuck me my own way
POW, fuck me in my own way
POW, fuck me in my own way
POW, fuck me in my own way
Fuck me in my own way
You should make amends with you
If only for better health, better health
But if you really want to live
Why not try, and make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself

Cute little Guy

This little guy was one thing that made me happy.







Simple? Answers? Only Questions.

That about sums it up!

Suck a fat one!

Happy Feet

Happy Feet Trailer

Warner bros. came out with this really great animated movie surrounded by penguins. It may be old news to others but new news to me. So enjoy. I tried embedding the trailer within this blog but um.. i guess you can't.

so check out the link and its out in theaters November 2006.

This is true!

Update on Kay!

Ok, so if you saw earlier on Jan.3, 2006 I told you the story about my experience with Kay Jewelers. Well, if you read in the story it said that my ring will be ready on Friday. Which is today!

So I decided to call during work and Jason informed me that once again I was misinformed and my ring is once again not in the store. It gets better, he called the repair shop where my ring was getting sized. He tells me that they are having trouble with the ring and are delayed. Why you ask? Well, the ring I tried on at the store is a size 7 and the ring size that I need is a 3 and a half. SO, he informs me that this is a very had task to do and it may make the gem pop right out.

He comes to me and suggests two things that I can do.
1. Have them size it to a size 5 and they would put these balls or something in it so it can fit my finger.

2. I can have a brand new ring made from scratch but, it will take like a month to do.

So, after talking with the guy for a little bit, I decided to just go ahead and get the ring made from scratch!

Now my issue is :
1.They should have known sizing from a 7 to a 3.5 is an issue.

2. They should have informed me it would take longer.

3. Besides Jason they are all assholes. He even said if I feel like coming down to complain, he would be fine with that.

So, in about a month I should be rocking a new right hand ring and they will be covering all the charges to make a new ring.

yep! :/

sleeping it off

well,im absolutly exhausted. The lack of constant sleep is getting to me. I have a couple of hours of sleep a night. and the rest is just broken apart naps with all freaky dreams with in those naps.Id never take sleeping pills but anything is looking good to getting a good night sleep. i do mean anything.

I just got done watching "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" and if i do wake up with all and any issues i have misterisly solved...i won't lie...i wouldn't mind. and he seemed to hhave some good sleeping the night he got his memory erased. you think you'd be one of those people who could erase someone else? I would..but id like to keep the knowledge that you get from that person..if that makes sense?

its only 9pm and i am looking foward to passing out..i was planning on doing my "billy blanks" tapes but fuck it..if i wake up even more cranker than i did today, someone will get shot.

gnight... love you all

1love

Screw You Kay Jewelers

OK! so on December 18th, 2005 Jay and I went and finally decided on a right hand ring to get me. We ordered it and sent it away to get sized. They offered to let me hold on to it and they would put a ring sizer thing on it, but I opted to just have it sent away. And I quote from the receipt slip.."Promise date 1/3/06". This is the date that the ring would be in store and ready for me to pick up.

So jay and I go and pick up the ring yesterday, the 3rd. Or at least we thought we were going to go pick it up, but instead they said fed ex got held back because of the holiday and it would be in today(1/4). Well, I decided to give a call about 10 mins ago to see if it is in the store. WELL! Surprise surprise, now they are saying that the actual place that resizes it is "behind". But then I say.."But you've had it for over two weeks now and I was "promised" it yesterday. AND I QUOTE from the snoody sales guy.. "Well, your not the only one who had there stuff sent out, its the holiday season". OK DICK! So SCREW YOU Kay... Its not like this holiday season just snuck up on us, we all knew about it and they should have factored that into the "promise" date.

ok. Jay has gotten me two pieces from Kays and now we will strictly be small jewelers or zales.

Thanks Kay, your the best!

sincerely, Catherine

Tools of the Trade

To some these sharp metal tools look like torture devices or even dentist tools.(Either way it still hurts ALOT, I only speak from dentist tools experience) Anyways, you are all wrong, they are tools used for clay sculpting.

Clay was my first interest into the arts, besides coloring books as a kid. I started out with pottery, then modeling. I actually stopped because as a little girl I got a really bad cut one time from a metal scraper I had. Then in college I picked up clay again and did some really cool mini-sculptures. Today someone brought in a Pixar book from the MOMA museum. They had some of their sculpting of characters in the book, and damn did it look great.

So, my decision is to go ahead and pick up the old 25lb clay and tools again:)
Given it will take me forever to do , but I am willing to reteach myself. If it actually comes thru, I will be sure to post some pics up of my work.

This Holiday was awesome!

This holiday season has been one of the best holidays I have had in such a long time. Everything seemed to have fallen into place. Even tho my family has gotten smaller and are now scattered thru the US, it was still really nice. I will forever miss my large Italian holiday meals, but I will forever love the Christmas spirit the holidays still bring.

But my birthday went really well, suprisingly. My closest friends showed up and even my friend from work, which was nice. It wasn't some crazy night but it was this awesome holiday get together for my birthday :) I loved it.

I kinda spoiled everyone that got any gifts from me, just because its the first holiday that I've ever had real money to my name. It did set me back in my savings but it was really well worth it. I loved everyone's faces when they saw my gifts.

O and even tho my man is DEF not as much into all the holiday get up as me, it was awsome. We went to this restraurnt with his family and then just went and chilled with his family. It wasn't some crazy outlandish night but it was a great night with family. I did miss mine but I did enjoy spending time with his.

I just felt all warm and fuzzy today for Some reason so I decided to share my thoughts with anyone that reads this.

Let it snow, let it snow... I need the snow!

stupid

Clients agrivate me... and thats all I have to say about that!

New Photos

I got some new photos up on my flickr page. The link is on the side of this blog. It has all my pictures from my birthday, xmas and new years!